State of Mind_4th Aug 2015

Everything sounds good or bad when spoken about from a top perspective!

Though the ground realities can hugely differ! When people aren’t very clear about their intentions, miss communication is bound to happen. We tend to stray from what is important and tend to crib about the things that don’t matter. Sometimes we even create newer, ulterior and parallel realities.How do we rectify this situation? How do we make aware of certain discrepancies?  We need to be more adept to change; to be more open to certain new possibilities and maybe help that possibility blossom into something beyond what has been expected.

 I don’t know if I always say or do the right things. I don’t know if certain things are supposed to be the way that we are or just go along with the flow and kind of sync myself to a system I don’t agree with.

It’s hard to live in an environment that has diversities that so immense that finding yourself within that pond becomes a task within itself, and that could take ages!  Nobody is perfect and change isn’t something that comes along very easily for everybody or for all changes in time.

Conclusions on my State of Mind?

Positivity is Dead!

So they say, when one's happy they are positive. They think positive, eat positive, drink positive, live positive and probablyw even shit positive.
Well the opposite goes to the negation!

When you work in a company for as long as I have (and I'm sure many of you have and maybe more), you grow akin to a certain manner of working. Initially you learn and try to adapt, and then eventually you're attuned; you carry on working with a system that's already familiar to you.

Imagine CHANGE! And I'm not talking the positive kind (though I wish it were)
Positive people refrain from cribbing... they stray from negativity and that, in my field is the best time for creativity. The best of your work stems from the happiness you feel in the comfort and easy going nature of your workplace and of course your colleagues. No matter how ridiculous or annoying the project you are allotted you find the silver lining and make the best of it.
Now, I find myself gossiping, cribbing, irritated and annoyed most  of the time. And why?
My thoughts though predominantly focused on the task at hand has taken a turn to the dark side. I usually don't bad mouth any one or confront or even enrage someone. It's not in my nature to be a BITCH ...but when provoked I'm an insufferable little devil (at least I'm honest about that).

Call me whatever you like, I can't stand injustice. What would you say to someone who has no business in your business and yet wants in your business?  How do you say "back off it bitch" respectfully in a professional manner? How would you handle a manager who doesn't have your back ('coz he's lost his own backbone)? Would you bypass him and rat him out to your super boss?

Some people consider my department as a bunch of dumb f**** who have no have no formal learning. And it's condescending to type caste someone as illiterate. I'm an English minor with a degree in Mass Communication, who worked as a copywriter before entering this field of television. One who doesn't have their facts straight has not right to be judgmental and horribly inconsiderate. And OMG, don't get me started on their fat - ass egos.

Well I had to find a vent. Typing about this hasn't made my problems go away but sure has helped with a tiny percent of relief.
I know I can't always be right and I will have people critic and annoy me about my work, but if I carry a certain belief and confidence in what I do, I just wish that I had someone to share that confidence in me and support me for crying out loud!

Thank you my dear blog for being my mouth-less companion and allowing the time and energy to speak what I kept bottled up through out this day.

xoxo

Melodrama

So today, I woke up thinking how lucky I was to be home after what seemed like ages!
I was glad to snuggle to the smell of my own bed, have breakfast at my old seat and drink from my own mug. I walked large spaces in these broad interiors of my home. Home; what a lovely warmth ran through my veins as I said it. I of course have a doting mother, who saw how off color I was when I woke this morning (Thanks to the long drive we took yesterday), an annoying yet equally doting twin sister who just sat next to me watching her daily Hindi soap online.

The morning seemed a bit sickly yet thoroughly pleasing for me, sitting amidst the presence of my family.
The enters the evil villain. My baby brother who just won't quit from trying to make us more miserable. A total pain in the ass!

He has his phone confiscated thanks to his very uncomely behavior. Now out of boredom he finds new ways to annoy us. He flat out refuses to do his chores and just seems to pick on everybody else except for himself. I wouldn't say he's a bad boy, he is my baby brother and I love him immensely; but he is a massive pain in my ass...
He believes that we won't be here to take care of him, that we don't love him enough but it's rather the contrary. The boy is spoiled rotten by us. He gets everything he ever wishes for and in return all we ask that he respects us. Respect us as his elders; as people who love and care for him. But he seems to be completely oblivious to that context.

Anyway, I pray and hope he sees a light at the end of his tunnel.I wish him only to be a model son and learn respect for people who surround him

I know this is a super personal post, but I did need a vent to let out the frustration and disappointment I feel when I experience this every time I visit home after a long time.

It's all about Christmas!

Christmas is the merriest time of the year for me, and to be able to express that joy for me through my job, is the most amazing feeling!

Here is; the joy that I'd like to express...

Turns out a Christmas Song is the best way to introduce a Comedy Marathon 2014 on Zee Cafe.
Merry Christmas ya'll!
Written/Sung/Produced by: Marienelle Ds'ouza
Male vocals: Brian D'Costa
Graphics: Mithun Menon
Audio: Wayne Fonseca

 

Pretty Little Liar "ME"

Though I might have shown major dislike about having to handle to show Pretty Little Liars at work, in truth I am a PLL fan. I know it's hypocritical of me, but then the fan of it is that, you are applauded more knowing that you disliked it and yet gave such exceptional result.

I know, I know...that's super sly of me ;)

Started out with the marathon Promo
Producer: Marienelle Azucena D'souza
Channel: Zee Cafe
Show: Pretty Little Liars

Long Due...

I've started with Zee Cafe & Studio for more than a year now, I don't really know what took me so long to post something new about this job...(or maybe I'm just super lazy)

Anyway, now seems a fitting time to be posting something that been long overdue...

After all I didn't want the year to end without me posting something, and two, I really love my job, so posting absolutely nothing about it would be stupid ;)

Proud moment #1
Something I did in December 2013...A whole year  later but still seems like a fresh achievement :)

ENJOY!

RANDOM!

RANDOM!

Today, I thought to myself; what do I write about?
I was desperate to put down my thoughts, yet I wanted to avoid debating, retrospection or any other form of foolish or un thought topics.

Then I thought about writing about my day. The simple pleasures of life! Things that make me happy.

I've been reading Deepak Chopra's semi- fictional book on the life of Buddha.
The book is pretty enlightening, I thought that the whole concept if Buddhism refers to pure Spirituality. But I see now that it is much, much, much more than that!
The power of meditation and staying in - tune with your inner self and detaching yourself from all earthly possessions & desires. This is all easier said than done. And through this book I see that Buddha did the same. He attained enlightenment not only but sitting under a precious Sal tree always, he challenged Evil, he helped the poor, he meditated, he questioned the teaching of others who seemed to have found their Dharma. He pushed forward to learn more & from different people. And if I look to parallels with the life of Jesus, he too suffered temptations (three to be exact). Even he questioned God's plan for him & was approached with thoughts to turn back to his princely stature and live comfortably. But chose a path that seemed impossible & succeeded.
Well I might not know much after reading this book, but I know I want learn more .

Then this long weekend gave me the chance to escape Bombay's hustle & bustle to come to a rather laid back Pune. I love the weekend that I spend here being with my sister. She's an amazing life partner for me and though I may not say this often, she is literally my savior.
Like yesterday, I was travelling late at night to come to Pune. 'Buddha' the novel kept me engrossed for most of the time. And somehow I deferred  sleeping. But surprisingly, when I almost reached Pune I dozed of while reading the book, and only woke when I reached Shivajinagar which was further away from my sister's place (Aundh). I freaked out. Called her (she was asleep too, so she didn't call). And at 12:18am I was alone on a deserted road in the middle of Shivajinagar (no clue about the place or people) and the journey which would usually take her 30mins at normal speed, my sister clocked 15mns. And she was there to pick me up saving me the nerves (I said a whole mystery of our lady in the meantime).

Well so that's that! Pretty eventful start to the weekend. Plus I didn't fall asleep till 7:30am.