Fix the Broken

I hate that I ever believed in you
I hate that I ever fell in love with you
though I never regretted falling in love with you!

Yes this heart ache still hurts with immensity,
Completed 5 cycles of 12 and I’m still in this rut.
Why have I let my guard down?
Made myself vulnerable and soft?
Just so that you could run me over like a piece of cloth!

I think to myself on most days; that I’m strong and I’m capable.
That I will never allow another Adam’s son to hurt me now,
yet all of that is just hopeless yearning, coz deep down I know
who it is I still yearn for.

But I want to have no more of this;
bury this pain, dry my tears.
Leave you in the deepest alley of my past.
It’s seems like an impossible task I must undertake
But unlike you I’d rather not fake!

Yes, it takes a lot more time than I ever thought,
It may have been easy for you but for me it’s not!
But I promise, I will get out.
I will be strong and I will love again.
No matter how much you wish to hurt me,
The Lord knows my name.
He will be my shelter, he will be my guide.

For you though, my love may forever remain,

Broken now, but I will fix myself and reign again!