Friday 13 April 2012

"All one can do is apologize and give the other some space; then maybe hope for some positive outcome"

"All one can do is apologize and give the other some space; then maybe hope for some positive outcome"

Forgiveness ... such a difficult gesture!
It is clearly never easy;
Not everybody is capable of such a gesture, yet everybody would like to believe, that they are the 'forgiving kind'.

Apologies on the other hand are easy some would like to think, but in my opinion it is much much much more difficult.
how many of us would actually swallow our BIG-GIANT-MASSIVE egos, to truly and humbly apologize to someone you've fouled against?!?!
Yet there are some who manage that great feet.
But when you do, that doesn't necessarily mean you are forgiven.

"Give them space" one says,  and yes,most of us think that is an absurd concept...

like seriously?!?! "give space"?!?

Well I think its a necessary action one must follow: the action of no-action!

An honest apology, followed by giving the other the space they need to come into terms with forgiving or not forgiving you (reasoning out,taking a decision and making their peace with it).
In the meantime, all your left with, is a gleam hope that maybe,just maybe, your truly forgiven
(which frankly according to me, is kinda like Penance).

But you know, we just have to bear with it...


Tuesday 10 April 2012

M.A.D ness

Yup! Some may think I'm obsessed with my name or just plain me;
But in reality, I'm just bored as hell...

I keep thinking of things to do in this small, shrinking space and all I can do is this!

Making a joke of me seems so much more interesting than my actual job :p 

Thursday 5 April 2012

A DAY WITH BLESSED JOSEPH VAZ


Note : This is an article I wrote about a special the Sancoale Youth shared with the youth of Grace Church.
It was written some time ago, but I thought it would be a good read in case anyone wanted to relive the experience.

A DAY WITH BLESSED JOSEPH VAZ



“I give myself and all the I possess so that She, as my true Mistress and Mother,
may dispose of me and my possessions as she wills”.

These are excerpts from the ‘Letter of Bondage’ written by a selfless man who
lived an extraordinary and truly sacred life. His road to sanctity began the moment
he was born and still continuous 300 years after his death. As youth of the modern
age, many times we fail to lead idealistic lives; so in order to give direction to our
lives, Fr. Ramiro and Fr. Milagres, conceptualized ‘A day with Blessed Joseph Vaz’
a beautiful initiative to get a deeper insight into the life of Goa’s Holy Son, giving us
a sacred inspiration for life along with uniting the youth of Grace Church Margao
and the youth of Sancoale (Blessed Joseph Vaz-home village) for a day.

A perfect Sunday that had the youth exchanging warm greetings, it was to be a
long day for reflection, recollection and sharing of some quality time with the
almighty and some new found friends.
First stop, It was Sancoale’s old church. From the Zuari Bridge it may seems like
a familiar sight: a gleaming white church like any other, but as we approach the
place one realizes that the church is in total ruins and all the remains standing
miraculously, is just the façade. We sit ourselves comfortably in a set up place that
used to be part of the church with a little chapel behind us, that was built around
the alter; remnants of this remarkable Church, brings in curiosity for those of us
who don’t know the deep history of the place and the suffering that plagued its
people, but soon we were enlightened by a brief insight onto the history of the
place by a local, Seby Fernandes.

Moments with ourselves; had us revisiting the bold yet humbling ‘Letter of
Bondage’ by Blessed Joseph Vaz to Mother Mary, through which we discovered
a true fanatic and devotee of Our Virgin mother. Given time to ourselves, we had
the chance to get a glimpse of this love and experience it ourselves. Our solemn
prayers have a strong hold on us, and as long as we hold on to that, we shall never
lose our way from the church and that’s what we a reassured of.

“The doors of Cortalim church miraculously opened on its own for him, when he
went to visit the Blessed Sacrament late at night”.

The Church of Saints Philip and James, is another historical monument that holds
great significance in the life of Blessed Joseph Vaz and consequently in the lives of
those who wish to know more about him. The ‘little saint’ as the villagers would
call him embraced the church, and made sure he spread his love for the church
everywhere he went. We get a feel of that same power the moment you step on to
the threshold of the church.
“Bl. Joseph Vaz never missed saying his prayers everyday and he loved saying
the Holy Rosary. This made me contemplate on my life and inspired me to do the
same. Apart from this, something which is still strong on my mind is “The Letter
of Bondage.” This is the letter wherein Bl. Joseph Vaz wrote about surrendering
himself wholly to Mother Mary. This shows his great devotion towards Mother
Mary. Such passion and love for Mother Mary made me deepen my relationship
with Mamma Mary. In his lifetime Bl. Joseph Vaz experienced great miracles.
At midnight when he used to go to pray at the church of Cortalim, the doors of
this church would open up for him on their own. And our priests thought of re-
enacting the same event for us. We were all excited about it and in the course of
this excitement when I entered the church; I felt overwhelming peace dawning
over me which is unexplainable.”
- Stephanie (Grace Church Youth)

On to the Sanctuary that is the centre of his devotion, The Sanctuary Blessed
Joseph Vaz; a place that attracts thousands from all walks of life. Up the hill we
climb through ‘The station of the Cross’ with solemn hearts; the heat of the harsh
sun fails to deter our enthusiasm for the climb. Atop the hillock one experiences
a warm calm; a certain peace amid the tiredness. Enter the Sanctuary and one
finds that everything about this shrine explains aspects his life; the glass paintings
above chronicles his life from birth till after his passing from the mortal world and
his miracles beyond it. Here we are inspired by the greatness of a humble priest
who has denounced any luxury and embraced the life of a mere commoner.
“As soon as he consecrated himself as a slave of Mary, he gave up on wearing
slippers or shoes for life.” This was a sign that he had a self-imposed task to
complete and that he was destined leave his foot-prints everywhere he went.
(Literally as well)

A brisk 5 min walk and we his reach the ancestral home; now another centre to
spread his devotion. This quaint little house now attracts thousands of devotees
every year. A glimpse of the significant jackfruit tree that still stands strong after
300 years is a clear testimony of faith.
As we drive back to the Our Lady of Health Church, in deep thoughts you are

enlightened; you see that every part of this village has prints of this holy man. He
truly walked into our lives and left a mark for a lifetime. The day concluded with a
special Eucharistic celebration by Fr. Milagres and Fr. Ramiro, for the youth and by
the youth with the melodious chants of the Grace Church youth.

“Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with
us or we find it not.” - Ralph Waldo Emerson
The whole day was a sacred experience that will last us a lifetime. One can
ascertain that each and every youth that attended this historical experience will
definitely have a story to tell, more people to inspire and spread the life of this
remarkable man.
“Everything about Bl. Joseph Vaz has inspired me to be a better youngster.”
- Stephanie
“I knew nothing about this great man before; except his name. It was meaningful;
learning about his life especially as we prepare ourselves this Lenten season. It
was a plus point for me since I’m teaching; I got to share my experience with my
students in school which they really enjoyed and wanted to know more and more
about Blessed Joseph Vaz and also visit the place too.. It was really inspiring…”
- Daisy
“A day with Bl. Joseph Vaz made me realize the great influx of opportunity and
privileges I have to showcase my talents as well as work with greater zeal in the
service of God.” -Juvena

It was truly an impactful day that shall never be forgotten. Though Blessed Joseph
Vaz lived 300yrs ago, his story is still very relevant and inspiring today, and many
centuries ahead…

Wednesday 4 April 2012

Born into this...

We live in modern times, we live modern lives or we still in the process of modernizing our life.
Everyday we try to rid ourselves of those social evils and setbacks that make us seem illiterate or dysfunctional.We try to be part of a system that is humane yet forward with changing times.
 But then there are still those, who claim to lead "modern", "forward" lives but are in dire need of reality check.

Let me explain this through an example: This family I've known for almost all my life now; the kids I've grown with and and share a familial-like relationship with. In many ways we are similar but in many ways different as well.
Imagine being born into a modern day family, that doesn't believe in basic education, where the girl child doesn't hold the same stature as the boy and so is treated like a slave(considering they are a well to do family),where beauty is given more importance than brains. 
I pity the girl,; who also happens to be a good friend. She's gorgeous, tall, smart and does have an commendable talent for art design. But all that beauty and talent is a shameful sorry waste, for she didn't get the education she deserved or the exposure she needed to develop her talent.
All the promise people saw in her during her developing stage is now just a big blank.....
Now all you can see her do is, sit at home, do household chores(even with the household help) and babysit her nieces and nephews when they're on Holiday from abroad.Even the house help gets to go to school and complete her education. The boy is a jobless philanderer, who had a chance to complete his education but decided to follow the family trail of illiteracy. Now he is just a mindless junkie who dresses like a king and acts all high and mighty but in reality is an empty seed.
There we see the differentiation made, the girl smart and willing to learn, but isn't allowed to; and the boy who's showered with chances to learn but prefers an easy handed 'junkie' life instead. He will marry one day, and his parents would prefer a smart, EDUCATED, WEALTHY match for a wife. She will marry one day and the parents would prefer a  not-necessarily educated but WEALTHY N.R.I for a match, who should more importantly share the same ideals as them( so the saga continues for generations to come).
The family is a family of hypocrites. They are the first to point fingers at others dirty laundry but fail to look into their own.Revolution is needed, mindsets needs to be changed. Life needs to be made worthwhile.
Given a choice I don't think any of us who want to be born into this...

Sunday 1 April 2012

Bagong Buhok for ME

It's been long since I've made a radical change in My Life!
Thought I'd start with a Hair Makeover!
My cousin finds it cute but says 'now I look more and more like a Filipino'; which i take as a compliment, after all I am half Filipino :P
Anyways after a radical change I do feel newer, better and ready for more ...
it's about time i took my life in my own hands :)

P.S: 'Bagong Buhok' means new hair in Tagalog