My Iridescent Lover

You, my lover you!
You have led me through
a life I have never desired.
I drown every day in a river of sorrow,
Love lost and never found again.


I used to wake every morning
mesmerized by your thoughts.
Kept thinking all day, when I’d see your face,
I’d kiss your lips and walk by the beach.


We were so lost in our bubble.
No one else existed but us.
We had our fair share of trouble,
but you never lost sight of me.


You kept changing my name;
cracked voice, you sang a song for me.
Carried my shoes with my tired feet,
I’d depend on you for everything.


Yes, you were my heart, you were my rock
and you put a ring on me.
Goosebumps, by the beach, made promises,
as we kissed each other’s lips.


Now that time has passed,
years gone by and distant.
Yet memories fresh and heart still broken
I see you’ve changed your colour again.


Now you’re crass and now you’re mean.
You’d take any chance to hurt me.
My fragile heart still broken and you
just want to vaporize it…


Keep changing colours;
keep changing love,
My Iridescent lover.

Fix the Broken

I hate that I ever believed in you
I hate that I ever fell in love with you
though I never regretted falling in love with you!

Yes this heart ache still hurts with immensity,
Completed 5 cycles of 12 and I’m still in this rut.
Why have I let my guard down?
Made myself vulnerable and soft?
Just so that you could run me over like a piece of cloth!

I think to myself on most days; that I’m strong and I’m capable.
That I will never allow another Adam’s son to hurt me now,
yet all of that is just hopeless yearning, coz deep down I know
who it is I still yearn for.

But I want to have no more of this;
bury this pain, dry my tears.
Leave you in the deepest alley of my past.
It’s seems like an impossible task I must undertake
But unlike you I’d rather not fake!

Yes, it takes a lot more time than I ever thought,
It may have been easy for you but for me it’s not!
But I promise, I will get out.
I will be strong and I will love again.
No matter how much you wish to hurt me,
The Lord knows my name.
He will be my shelter, he will be my guide.

For you though, my love may forever remain,

Broken now, but I will fix myself and reign again!

In the face of Adversity : Our Self-imposed Ignorance

It's been quite a while since my last blog. My move to Bangalore has not been very easy,; it's been time-consuming and exhausting. But i'm slowing coping, one week almost done!

Anyways my reason to blog today is not to talk about my metropolitan move, but about this article I read today on The Times of India  e-paper.

I'm baffled at how ignorant and selfish we can be in today's work; me included.
It's like we walk with blinkers on all day and don't even bother to pay heed to the person sitting right next to us, totally oblivious to their life story and background.

The piece of news I read today was a definite eye-opener. I am ashamed to be living in a country that still treats its women like commodities and fail to give them their due respect.
The news was about this young 20 year old girl, married off to a man at the tender age of 15. Once at her 'new' home, the in-laws demand more and more dowry over the coloured TV, bike, tractor and rs 1 lakh given before marriage. Failing to meet the demands, she was plunged into a 5 year life of turmoil, full of sexual exploitation, assault, savagery, and brutality by the husband,in-laws, relatives and neighbours whilst she was left to downtrodden in a cowshed sharing her living space with the cattle, until she was sold off at a mere price of Rs 50,000/-. The unfortunate was then spotted by a relative of hers and was finally rescued by her family after 5 years of mental and physical torture.


A young girl, barely a woman,  repeatedly raped, abused; tearing her of her innocence. She's not even fully aware of the world's beauty and verve and she's already sent into the deep dark ends or torturous alleys. How can she ever live a better life? How will she come out of this mentally? Will she ever love again? Will she ever be able to know , if the child she was forced to abort, would have grown to see the light of day?Now in a modern, fast moving, ever-evolving world we live in, this should actually seem like some absurd long diminished concept. Yet this plague still exists!


It's an ugly serpent that just raises it's head midst our naked eyes. We've spent most of out earth days, thinking about US! What I want! What's happening to ME? without the slightest consideration for the evils that still persists even today.


I am ashamed to admit that I am one those you'll! We are all responsible for such evil. By ignoring it, not talking about it and not fighting it to the maximum extent so that it is eradicated for good, we contribute to its survival and let it persist.

It's disturbing and truly saddening.